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Ever wonder how it would be to have all of your insecurities cured for one day? If you woke up super thin, longer hair, a bit shorter or maybe taller, perfect teeth, a glowing complexion, deep colored eyes, full lips, just everything you’d ever want to be.

I have and I know I’ll never be that person. I hope oneday I’ll love myself as myself completely, but truth is, I don’t know if I ever will.

Old demons enclose inside my closet. My mirror cast a reflection that I only face, but the previous is not a dilemma; for it is the present. For it is the present that jolts uneasiness from peak of my skull to the undersides of my feet. 

I hate it. I hate when people say never get too attached. I understand you’re afraid to get hurt, but why not jump to see if their arms waiting to catch you? Why live in a constant fear that could possibly jeopardize fate? Being hurt is like air being knocked out of you. But love …love makes you tear down every wall you put up from the world and become completely vulnerable to that one person. It’s embarrassing.  People may deny this, but love makes you feel like that person is the last breath of oxygen flowing in your lungs. And if you lose that person, you’ll be afraid to breath again. However, there is more air surrounding you and it’s okay to inhale once more.